Carpe diem, always squeezing the most out of every day. But how to do it if everything around us is oriented towards the future?
We spend 18 years of our lives studying to get a grade to continue studying. So that after entering or not the university and career that we had been imagining for years, we continue studying to get the highest possible grade. So when we finish, we study again to specialize or take some competitive exams to try to achieve the goal that we have been waiting for a third of our lives. And even then we have not yet achieved it, because finding a job today is also a risk factor. And when we think we have everything, the question that we hope we never find in ourselves, is this really what I have been looking for all my life?
After so many years of my life studying, I stop and think, what is my goal?
At 18 I think I am too young to know what I want in this life, but many times I consider myself too old to achieve great things in this limited time, you see Mozart, Picasso, Tamara Rojo or Maya Plisetskaya. That's when my head doesn't stop spinning, how am I going to be, who do I want to be, what do I intend to achieve and so on until I realize that we don't do very well with this carpe diem thing.
One day I heard that "life is just a set of small dramas that, all together, make up nothing more than a comedy." This phrase made me think, but think a lot, of this that keeps buzzing in my subconscious, like the mythical number one song of the forty that keeps playing. I couldn't give it a meaning just like that, I didn't want it to be so simple, there had to be a complication behind it.
But then I stopped, I can't say exactly when I realized it, but I did. Realizing that I just need to be me, achieve my happiness, that of those around me and really delve into what I believe, delve into the relationships that matter to me, delve into the small details that make me smile, delve into the decisions I make every day... delve into finding myself. Even if I am so young and I have a whole life ahead of me, why not delve into my goal, because finally I think I have it clear. I want to feel that I have lived, that my presence is remembered, that I am remembered for all the good things I contributed, I would like people to one day read what I write and make them reflect. That people reflect as I have done or in different directions, but that the keys I touch on my laptop are present in their hearts. Nothing could make one happier than when one is ready to leave this long road, to feel it, that feeling of satisfaction and work well done, to feel that we have squeezed the most out of the steps we have followed.
I am not talking about mistakes or successes, about what is right or wrong, about what we should or should not do, let's end this epistemological dualism once and for all. Let's do what we feel we need to do within ourselves to feel happy and fulfilled, to make every day of our lives count. Feeling fulfilled at the end of the road does not mean having done things right or wrong, but feeling at peace with yourself.
This small article goes especially to those young people, who like me, are not satisfied with what they see every day, with what surrounds them. For all those who think that limits do not exist, because we create them without realizing it, that we are much more than a piece of meat and a few bones, that we are incredibly magnificent. If you ever doubted yourself, it is because you have not yet discovered yourself. Don't think about what you have left to study, because if your dream is to be a doctor, lawyer, artist, journalist, historian... whatever it is, everything needs time and dedication, but while you learn and enjoy your path, because that is the only thing that will make you strong.
So, because of what I have said and because of everything you are thinking right now, studying does not determine your goal, getting a grade is not going to give you a social value, being happy is not being the best at what you do. Our goal should be to sleep every day satisfied with ourselves and feel proud of who we are. It is not about living in the present or thinking about the future, but about building ourselves and knowing that we are on a good path to achieve absolutely everything we set out to do.
"Life is a feeling process".
? Iggy Azalea
By Teresa Fajardo Negrín, (https://teresasabeescribir.
