The question of whether I believe in God or not, or whether you believe in God or not? in any of its variants? doesn't interest me, it doesn't tell me anything, and each person's beliefs are personal matters. The question that interests me is: does it exist or not? And there I am, deciding first if I am capable of grasping what 'exists' and what 'does not exist' is. Because stating 'what is' of something that does not exist is already a mess.
The question then becomes, is what does not exist something? Can there be existence if there is no non-existence? What exists must have come from non-existence. What does not exist would somehow be the driving force behind what exists. The same thing happens to me with the big bang. Since I don't understand deep mathematics, I have to cling to my intuition and imagination, being well aware that in matters of the physics of the small, quantum mechanics, intuition serves more than anything to confuse you.
But let's go back. There is something very small, very compressed - a singularity they call it - that "bursts" and here we are. And when you clumsily ask yourself if that something always existed, you realize that "always" doesn't make sense because time also began there. If so, that singularity existed in a time that did not exist. And in a space that did not exist. I say that space and time are inseparable. So I end up getting fed up and it occurs to me to think that God is that non-existence and therefore exists, but does not exist.
And that's how I live, because after all, one is a singularity or unimaginable millions of singularities, and as such fluctuates between existence and non-existence. So this guy doesn't have the slightest doubt that God exists and doesn't exist. The fascinating thing is that when God exists, everything ceases to exist. And then, you inhale, exhale and space and time begin once more and He ceases to exist. Or She. But don't worry about that, because what doesn't exist has neither gender nor anything at all.
