I want my second dose of AstraZeneca or all those responsible can go to hell and I will stop complying with any rule regarding covid, except those that I dictate to myself.
There are situations in life, most situations in life, in which one has no idea which way to go. Among other things because one has no idea what life is. Neither one nor anyone else.
In my case, I am usually very faithful to the decisions I make and I feel free assuming all the consequences of those decisions. That is, every time I blame someone for something related to them, I am giving up part of my freedom. And for me, freedom is the ability to assume the maximum awareness and responsibility for my thoughts and actions. And those that I may have generated or provoked in others.
Then there are the general issues, those that I share with humans in the first degree and with life in general, in a higher degree. I understand the extraordinary difficulties in managing this crisis, starting from the perspective that covid exists and it is not that it kills -that life kills- but how it kills. And that the solutions are in a highly qualified environment, but highly greedy, competitive and corrupt. Pharmaceutical science and politics.
How does it kill? In my dreams I have been able to feel it in all its intensity and I never “saw” anything like it. Because any other critical situation that I dreamed or lived, I was able to face it from the greatest of pains or sufferings, but from a mental anchor. Let's say that castle in which we are attacked and besieged, but in the castle. Without a castle I have no words to tell you what it is like. There are situations beyond fear. Fear, after all, is the walls of the castle.
I cannot explain myself more, nor would I know how to explain what the opposite is, bliss, joy. But in my dreams and life I have also experienced previously unimaginable bliss and joys. Maybe I'm an extremist, but with two extremes. As I get tired of saying, life is bipolar and paradoxical.
Well, the thing is that they called me to get vaccinated and I decided to go and get vaccinated. And also with the intuition that I had been very lucky with the vaccine I got (the controversies with it had already started). I did it out of a commitment to the elderly, to the weakest, with respect to this virus and to free the lives of young people as soon as possible. And because I have already lived enough to sign up for them to test with me.
So now it seems to me an absolute political cowardice that they do not guarantee me the second dose in case they kill me. Once the first one is put in, the second one is, in my opinion, my decision and no one else's. Being as the vaccines are available.
So all I want to say is that I want my second dose of AstraZeneca. It is a right that no one should take away from me. For the first one I offered them my body without asking for guarantees of any kind. And assuming that there were none. And grateful.
And if they don't give it to me, it's not that I take it as a health problem, nor that, as I said at the beginning, I'm going to blame anyone for my situation. I will simply be freer than ever. Because I will have to assume the biggest screw-up in my social history.
It would be -how not- paradoxical that I was touched by a minister (woman) and Canarian (countrywoman). That she is a socialist is no paradox. It is part of my curriculum. I add the final part of a correspondence with another person who questions the use of masks and the existence of the virus.
Answer: Yes, that's right, there are scientists who say that nothing exists. For example, the Earth on a universal scale is infinitely smaller than a virus on a human scale. And look at the importance we give ourselves. Not as earth, but as individuals. That from the Earth we pass..
Hahaha... I'm still more worried because I can't go naked. I don't think there is any scientific argument against it. And the penalty is much greater, legally and socially, than going without masks. Imagine a person without a mask on Calle Real, a Hindu shrine or a Christian cathedral. And another naked with a mask. Who do you think they would go for.
I don't believe or disbelieve. I simply evaluate possibilities with the available information, intuition and what friends who handle much more information than me tell me, with more technical capacity to process it and from many different places.
I'm not afraid of dying or even getting sick, but I don't feel like it either. So my evaluation -which is not my belief- is that there is a high possibility that the covid thing is true. And many more that we do not know how to deal with it adequately, also taking into account the diversity of ways of facing life both individually and nationally and the tendency to corruption and greed.
What I don't have an evaluation on is whether it is natural or artificial. One of the scientists who says it is artificial is a Nobel Prize winner in medicine for discovering the AIDS virus. Another Nobel Prize-winning scientist who created the PCR technique says that the first one is a showman who never provided evidence of the AIDS virus. Both are alternative rebels. And I am nobody to understand, in depth, their debates.
In the end, very small things are part of quantum mechanics. And those who know the most about it say that whoever says they understand it has no fucking idea about it. But there are GPS and cell phones and so many things that, after all, are based on calculations of probabilities, because we will never know where the electron is. Whatever that electron is. That nobody has ever seen it either.
It seems that the biggest thing is the Universe, or God, and the smallest thing is hidden from human sight, hahaha and they do well.
Hugs.
I finish:
Minister, keep a vaccine for me. Or write me a private letter and explain why not the second dose. Or a few million letters to all the astrazenecados. Come on! They do it to ask us for the vote. Do it to explain the veto to us.
For the time being I hum that: ”That is to say, that with the violence of the sea, I would like to kiss again haaasta bleed”. And I smile from when we lived blowing out a birthday candle on a cake and then eating it all together. Living on the edge.
However, and despite everything and above all, I pity your situation. That is the paradox. The positive and the negative is like the electron: we will never know where it is; only probabilities.
Maybe it's better to leave it as it is and not get vaccinated anymore, or the second one from another. But I like the illusion that I make my decisions. I imagine the same thing happens to you. If not, you wouldn't be a minister. I say.
